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When Your Babies are Adults
No one can fully prepare us. Our babies will grow up. They will will make adult decisions. They will make immature decisions when they think they are grown. Sometimes all we can do is stand on the sidelines. Our children are so different. We do the best we can. Some are just hell-bent to make…
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High School Insecurities
We all had them. I was in this precarious environment where I was actually good friends with some really popular girls (thanks to growing up on the swim team). I was always on the outside though. I was awkward and overweight. Some of the other popular group did not want me around, so I would…
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How Caring for my Mental Health Helped my Parenting
I got to do a real life experiment on parenting. I am so sorry that my kids had to live the effects of this. We have two older children (really adult kids) and two younger children. The younger kids are growing up in a very different household. It’s not just the obvious: we have more…
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Finally Submitting to Help
I am still in 2023 and got back to work about the same time I got stabilized on some medications. The timing worked out great. I had also had time to find my new therapist. Things were looking much better. I was still running, but no longer crying on those runs. Then family trouble started.…
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I was Scammed, PSA to Save Yourself
I know very little about technology. I can admit that. I know my limitations in life. I am comfortable sharing my limitations. I also know that I am not a complete idiot and I usually do not just fall for things. Please learn from my mistake. I was barely awake when I received a message…
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Drowning in Diagnoses
Come back to 2023 with me. There I was, riddled with anxiety, depression, and PTSD. There was so much electricity in my body, that I felt like I was on fire at times. I called my Primary Care Physician who under-treated me and told me to, “think about nice things and don’t think about the…
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Thoughts on Our Children
I would be remiss to ignore the shooting this week on the children in Minneapolis. We all have so many thoughts and I am sure, most of them we share. In the interest of mental health, political views will never be discussed on this platform. First and foremost, my hearts go out to all of…
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Was it Attention?
I have heard that suicide attempts are a call for attention. What if someone makes an attempt, but no one knows? I was a teenager. I remembered this horrible thing in my life. I made an announcement about it. And Crickets. Where do you go from there? Let me tell you where, nowhere. You have…
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Grateful to Not be an Addict
I was exposed to boys, alcohol, and cigarettes in one night. I guess that’s usually how it goes though. I have no idea what typical is supposed to be. I was a Freshman in high school. I was 15 years old. I really cannot remember if the memories had started yet or not, but I…
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How Exactly Can Ignoring Your Past Come Back for You?
I was in High School before I realized that I had been molested. There were still so many questions. I had no idea how long this lasted. I had no idea how far things went. I only had a few revolving memories. There was a lot about my childhood that was just missing. I learned…