This is tough. We live our lives prepared for the worst situations. Sometimes it seems like we drown in terrible situations, but sometimes we kind of thrive. What happens to our bodies when everything is going well? How does our body adapt when family is behaving, work is thriving, and we are happy? Even better, what is happening when extra great things are happening in our lives?

Life has been like this for me lately. Work is good. I just released my first book and I think the launch went well (I have nothing to compare it to). My 2nd oldest just graduated high school and has a plan for going away for a bit. He also just got on the other side of a court date and things went better than expected. My other children are thriving. My marriage is great. I have good friends.

Let me explain what this feels like in my body. I would love to say that it feels like peace. I would love to say that I can rest easy. This is absolutely not the case. There is a constant feeling that something will go wrong somewhere. Who knows where it will come from. Will it be my health? My family? My work? My marriage? A friendship?

No one wants to be this way. No one wants to be “negative.” It is not a way to live. It is just more work to make our way through. A sign that we are not fully healed. If this is happening to you, do not be discouraged. You are not alone. To our friends who do not understand this, we are not trying to bring everything down, we are simply trying not to be blindsided when things fall apart again. The other shoe tends to drop in our lives and we just like to be prepared for that happening again.